in manhattan...

so, blogging in nyc is a lot different than DC. it might be because i'm so used to being in DC at this point, and i haven't been in ny in so long. people here are so damn unique. it seems like pretty much everybody here has a style all to their own, and it's totally different than i remember it being. i find myself wondering if every other person i see is rich, or not. either very rich or very smart. hmm. are there any average working low income people working/living in manhattan? i feel like there must be! but i don't see how that can be possible with how expensive everything is here. though, i live in work in DC which isn't far behind in the cost of living. so perhaps. anyway, i feels strange being here without anybody else. especially carrie. this was always our city and it's actually very depressing to walk around and see all these familiar places---without her. very depressing actually. it makes me want to call her up and beg for her to come back and work on things together....though truly i know that is not the answer. it's hard to imagine finding another person that will compare to carrie even remotely, but i have faith that it will one day happen. just need to be patient and aware. by the way this is the BEST mocha frap i've had in my life. literally. the best. it actually tastes like chocolate. i wonder if they made it incorrectly because it seems very loaded down with flavor--so much so i don't see how they could make a profit using so much syrup etc. 

so i started to read sex, drugs, and coco puffs again. i kind of lost interest in it a couple of months ago because the writer started to sound like any/ever realization he ever came to was a result of some trip he had while stoned. thankfully, the recent chapters have lightened up a bit and actually started to make some applicable sense. i guy writes so eloquently it's scary, and almost every point/topic he discusses and apply directly to me in every way and from examples that apply directly to me. it's crazy. he basically writes as i wish i could...more intelligently and with broader depth and focus.

so, i'm going to head out and try and find gill and this venue i'm supposed to be photographing. i'll likely be back at this exact same starbucks later tonight trying to upload my photos to ryan, but i might try and see if he can wait until just a little later tonight so i have a faster connection at my hotel. hopefully, i'll have some time to grab some shots around central park and other areas afterwards. maybe even times square if my feet are up to it...who knows.

until later...