in manhattan...

so, blogging in nyc is a lot different than DC. it might be because i'm so used to being in DC at this point, and i haven't been in ny in so long. people here are so damn unique. it seems like pretty much everybody here has a style all to their own, and it's totally different than i remember it being. i find myself wondering if every other person i see is rich, or not. either very rich or very smart. hmm. are there any average working low income people working/living in manhattan? i feel like there must be! but i don't see how that can be possible with how expensive everything is here. though, i live in work in DC which isn't far behind in the cost of living. so perhaps. anyway, i feels strange being here without anybody else. especially carrie. this was always our city and it's actually very depressing to walk around and see all these familiar places---without her. very depressing actually. it makes me want to call her up and beg for her to come back and work on things together....though truly i know that is not the answer. it's hard to imagine finding another person that will compare to carrie even remotely, but i have faith that it will one day happen. just need to be patient and aware. by the way this is the BEST mocha frap i've had in my life. literally. the best. it actually tastes like chocolate. i wonder if they made it incorrectly because it seems very loaded down with flavor--so much so i don't see how they could make a profit using so much syrup etc. 

so i started to read sex, drugs, and coco puffs again. i kind of lost interest in it a couple of months ago because the writer started to sound like any/ever realization he ever came to was a result of some trip he had while stoned. thankfully, the recent chapters have lightened up a bit and actually started to make some applicable sense. i guy writes so eloquently it's scary, and almost every point/topic he discusses and apply directly to me in every way and from examples that apply directly to me. it's crazy. he basically writes as i wish i could...more intelligently and with broader depth and focus.

so, i'm going to head out and try and find gill and this venue i'm supposed to be photographing. i'll likely be back at this exact same starbucks later tonight trying to upload my photos to ryan, but i might try and see if he can wait until just a little later tonight so i have a faster connection at my hotel. hopefully, i'll have some time to grab some shots around central park and other areas afterwards. maybe even times square if my feet are up to it...who knows.

until later...

good morning fire eater

so, i'm practically sitting in direct sunlight....fitting after a day of staring at direct LCD lights, haha. Had a three hour booking this morning for photography of an event that was surprisingly interesting. It was a bunch of scholars, engineers, and the former governor of NY discussing the National Electric Grid. Very fascinating stuff...especially the keynote speaker Peter...something. Anyway, he was the weird, totally nerd, and obviously genius type. He just knew wtf he was saying...so rare. I felt a little more awkward than usual because of my clothing, but it's all good 'cause I got my official press blug black t-shirt now! So, after the event I spent my hours editing up the photos and uploading them to flickr...it took 45 mins JUST to upload all the shots. 1.10 GB worth. Hopefully they feel they got their monies worth. I feel like most of them turned out well...especially if all they're using them for is web related stuff. I need to start using my 50 1.4 lens more, but I'm always afraid I'll need the 18-50mm for a group shot or something. I LOVE the 50 1.4, but I'm so lame and unskilled that having no zoom really freaks me out. Oh well, tomorrow morning I will force myself to suck it up and go for it. Plus, I'll have my d50 as a backup with a lens ready to rock if needed in a hurry.

So, for the rest of today I'm planning on going home and mixing up a song that I actually recorded way back in February. Just finished the lead vocals last night, and will finalize the backing vox (hopefully) tonight. I think it's going to be my best mix to date. Its got that elusive "in your face" punch and warmth that everyone seems to always be after. There's also a shit ton of instrumentation goin' on. Yes, SHIT ton. I have no idea how I was able to write such an "advanced" song, but I definitely pulled it out of my ass! Anyway, more on that later...once I've received some feedback from friends & fans.

On a more serious note, I fear that I'm really starting to be unhappy at my job. Maybe it's just the time of the year, or the fact that I'm single, or something I'm unaware of, but I definitely feel like something has changed. It might be a result of the slow summer and/or the fact that there are several large projects people seem to expect me to take on---and it just can't happen. I don't have the time! Though things are slow a lot of the time right now that doesn't mean I am able to take on a 4-6 month long project. Bah! Anyway. I'm going to stop journalling like a 12 year old emo boy.